out of control .

latelyy , i've been all over the placee . i dont know what i want anymore . my mindd is spinning . one minute i want you . the other i want him . im desperately in need of advice and it seems like i cant tell anybody anything anymore . , people is too shady now a days and i dont trust em one bit ! "Scared of Lonely" has been on repeat all day . it explains exactly how i feel right now . i know i've always had that "i dont need a man to make me happy" mentality , but lately it seems that has washed down the drain . shitt fuckk , i have no idea what im saying right now . ugh im just trippin . nobody fucking understands ! including me . .

Bestfriend.

♥ Shamirrrr!
I ♥ my best friendd Shamir Jasmine Mariee :) I'm so glad I had the chance to know her because she is absolutely the most caring, funniest, understanding, not to mention stylish girl I know. I'm gunna miss her SO muchh when she moves to Ohio on Monday. I honestly don't know what I'm gunna do without her cz I don't fuckk wit nobody else like thatt. lol. I guess I'll just be anti-social. Nahh jkk lol I'm too friendly for that. But no one can replace her. She is the definition of a true best friend. We tell each other everythingg!; even when we get on each other's nerves. Ugh i know this isn't the end because we swore that we were gunna go to college together. Hah and if that doesn't happen we will definitely be sharing a condo in New York. We've known each other sincee 7th grade when I was a white girl and she was the ghetto girl with the side ponytail. Those were the days when she didn't know that fish pooped lmao. In 8th grade, I used to hate it when she gave me points for everytime I said/did something stupid. Like she was my mama or somethin? Aha she so crazy. Omg she was the one who took me to my first "black" party lol cz I was such a Hollister/A&F girl she wanted me to break out and booty shakee. That night I learned how to dance on a guy. Lmao it sounds so stupid now. Aah there's soo much I can say about her and the funny ass times we hadd but now my hand hurts. Lol sooo long story short, I love this girl and we plan on being best friends f o r e v e r ( like 21 ) :D lame!

blahhh,

whyy are relationships so difficult? when i was single, i loved talking to whoever i pleased but often i complained about not having a boyfriend. as soon as i get one, i don't feel right. either i've just been going out with the wrong dudes, or idk what i want. probably bothh lol. i used live by my phrase  "i'm single for life!" and didn't give a fuck about niggas that liked me bc i realized that at the end of the day, they don't really care about you. ugh i guess i know what it means now when boys say that girls are complicated cz i know damn sure i am! omg and why is it when you get wit somebody, all these boys come out the blue!? i dont have time for thiss lol; summer's comin up and ima be workin. i think i need to focus on me.

Alicia Keys- "Unthinkable (I'm Ready)"

i'm so in love with this song since day one when her album came out. it's unbelievable lol. the lyrics are so real and sweet :) and when i found out she had a video for it ; it just made me love it even moree. damn , Chad Michael Murray is so FINE ! he's in my top five listt of cute white boys. next is Zach Efron aha. but anywayss. . watchh it if you haven't already!

There Goes My Babyyy lol ♥

todayy,

today i did absolutely nothing .
& usually i would be complaining about how there's nothing to do
but today i didnt mind doing anything productive (:
it was rainin like almost hallf the dayy which made me wanna sleep of course.
and stupidd malik kept calling mee tryna wake me up.
urgg . .thats one of my pet peeves!
but w/e. thats why i keep my phone on silentt.
DO NOT BOTHER ME WHEN IM SLEEPING. anyways, i had a lot of time to think
about my lifee today. & i realized that i dont like half the people i hang out
with. dont worry, that'll be changed asap.
i've alreadyy deleted numbers from my phonee. since i dont need em, there's no need
in using up MY spacee. =/
"unthinkable" by alicia keys has been on repeat all day on my itunes. & i know im WAYY late on listenin to wiz khalifa, but i actually didnt like him. i know SO many people would disagree but idgaf.
now im off to go watchh mean girls for the x5772493 time and eat ice cream. bye.

hmphh . .weed;

UGH, everybodyy i know is smokin weed noww. =/ ehhh!